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Phoebe Bridgers: Her Music as Meditation

by Ray Buckner| December 11, 2020

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Ray Buckner on how Grammy nominee Phoebe Bridgers’ music is a spiritual friend, a path forward into the unknown.

Phoebe Bridgers. Photo © Daniel DeSlover / ZUMA Wire / Alamy Stock Photo

“Chinese Satellite,” from Phoebe Bridgers’ triumphant second album Punisher, is about loss and longing and yearning to feel connection in a landscape of emptiness.

“I’ve been running around in circles / pretending to be myself,” Bridgers sings. “How could somebody do this on purpose / when they could do something else.”

In my reading, Bridgers’ words are about choosing a difficult path that seems to have little payoff, yet is undoubtedly part of her calling. Her lyrics grace my heart as I’ve been spending my life too in a difficult search for home. I flashback to those early years, when I was seven or eight, and relive ridicule and judgment for being transgender. But while being transgender isn’t easy, I know it is right. I know this is me. The testosterone and anti-depressants and surgeries are all part of that challenging, yet meaningful, path.

“Chinese Satellite” is a ballad of impermanence, of facing the reality of our lives. It’s about not being saved by anyone else, even as we wish we could be, and finding a way to save ourselves. It’s about yearning for hope and also about lacking belief and feeling absolutely alone. It’s about wanting love and home and belonging. It’s about not wanting what we love to be gone, forever.

“I want to believe,” sings Bridgers, “that if I go outside I’ll see a tractor beam / Coming to take me to where I’m from / I want to go home.”

We all want something that can help us feel safe and belong. We all want something that will help us not suffer—something that won’t leave us. If the Buddhist path is our route home, then so is Bridgers’ music. If we come to the Buddhist path to find a way out of, or within, suffering, then we come to Phoebe Bridgers for just the same. Bridgers’ music is a meditation—a breath by breath, word by word reflection—on that which we carry. Her words exist as an invitation to live, feel, and discern our hearts and minds.

“Chinese Satellite” is a wish and an answer. It’s a wish for home and a call to create it. Bridgers is part of my home: helping me hold this tender heart with honesty, safety, and grace. Her music is a spiritual friend, and a path forward into the unknown.

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Ray Buckner

About Ray Buckner

Ray Buckner received their MA in Women’s, Gender, and Sexuality Studies from The Ohio State University. In Fall 2020, Ray will begin their PhD in Religious Studies at Northwestern University. Ray’s academic research analyzes sexual violence in American Buddhist communities. Ray is a Buddhist practitioner who has previously worked for organizations committed to racial, religious, and gender justice. Through their writing and public scholarship, they explore subjects of sexual trauma, queer and transgender desire, and racial injustice.

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